Push back the shadows so that you can rest | S5 Finale

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Ruby hates this, but she also knows it's the only way just like she knew Dean had to go to Hell before they could get him back. This is so much worse than losing Dean because she loves Sam. She also knows that she can help Sam survive Lucifer's cage until they can get him out, and that's her focus right now.

Bobby and Dean are discussing the incident with Death, which leaves Ruby and Sam some time alone in one of the spare bedrooms. She sits down, straddling his lap, hands on his shoulders. "Hey, Puppy. We've gotta talk." Her eyes are already filling with tears.

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[weirddreams]

If there was another way avaiable to them, Sam would be all ears. The only thing was that it couldn't be Dean to do it. It's not been an easy decision for him as well. Her faith in him surviving the pit and getting him out gives him a lot to hold onto.

The plan is that Ruby and Sam take care of the vax distribution before it happens. They don't need to be there for the discussion on finding Death. He presses his palms into her sides, works them upward respectively to her butt cheeks, bringing her closer. "What's on your mind?" If this is their last night, he won't hold himself back and he's hoping she won't either.

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Ruby has tried to find another way. She'll keep looking for another way until the moment Sam says yes. If she can survive Hell with any shred of humanity intact, he can too.

Ruby snuggles in as close as she can to Sam, legs wrapping around him. "You. Me. The future and a very, very, long sexcation once I figure out how to get your soul out of Lucifer's cage."

[weirddreams]

There isn't much time left but he won't be the one to bring it up. He knows she'll need all the hope to continue on no matter the outcome of her research.

Close, and closer, his hands match the pressure of her legs around him. "I have a long list if you want to hear it. Ever want to see the Great Wall of China? Catacombs of Paris? Just the two of us when I'm out."

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Hope is important for both of them.

Her smile isn't a real thing; it's more the ghost of a smile. She leans her forehead against Sam's. "The great wall of China isn't all it's cracked up to be and the catacombs are just a grave, but I'll go see the convenience store down the road with you. I am going to get you out and I'll help you heal when I do. You are so much stronger than I ever was as a human. It's going to hurt and you're going to break." She cups his face with both hands. "But you get to decide how you break. Don't try to hold onto everything, just the most important things. And scream. Scream all you want, but know I WILL come get you. I promise." Tears are trickling down her cheeks now.

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He rests into her forehead and looks at all the clues her face is telling him. The smile is real enough to him. He does it better with his own smile (not by much). "Humor me. We can go somewhere more quiet if that's what you want." The fantasy of the reunion half slips away with her sobering advice. His eyes fix on hers. The tears, all of it. He'd be lying if he told himself he wasn't afraid. He pulled himself together to keep it up for Ruby. His hands come up to grip hers in his. "Don't cry. I don't want to remember you crying. I... I promise I'll hold on to the best things." There are a lot of examples that come to mind but Sam feels in his gut that tonight will be the best. He drops one hand to wipe the tears staining her face away.

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"Puppy, we can go anywhere you want. There's a beach that glows at night in the Maldives. I won't spoil the why for you. You can figure it out when you get there. We'll go to see the Sistine Chapel then stop by in Paris at the catacombs. We can visit the Taj Mahal. It was built for the guy's wife or something like that. I'll brave crowds and mobs for you." She takes a deep breath, pushing her tears back. "I'm okay," she promises. "And you're going to be to if it's the last thing I do."

[weirddreams]

"You have me at Maldives." It has a little to do with a healthy curiosity to why the beach glows, but more to do with holding on to a future with Ruby. His hand drops to where her heart would beat at her promise crowds for him. "Don't worry, I won't ask you to do that for me." But he is touched she would even suggest it. "Ruby, I have faith you can figure it out. You're smart and strong as well as beautiful and I want you to remember that."

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"Excellent choice. I hear the wardrobe there consists of bikinis and swim trunks with a side of skinny dipping mixed in." She knows exactly what they're doing and it's the only way she wants to spend tonight. She places her hand over his."It's okay as long as you don't spring it on me," she tells him then sobers at his words. "You're right. I am. Just remember that. I'm also stubborn and hard-headed. I don't quit even when I know I should and I will never stop trying to get you out. I will find a way. I am coming for you. Remember that." She seals her words with a kiss, sweet and desperate.

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"I can already guess which wardrobe you'd lean towards. Don't forget we can't avoid other people in tourist attractions." He's content to picture the two of them almost entirely alone on a beach somewhere. While on that imaginary beach, the ring he'd given her glistening on her finger but not half as much as her under the sun. For their last night on earth, as it is right now, the time together is everything. His hand turns to face hers, fingers gliding through hers. When her lips smother his, his other hand runs up her neck to hold the bottom of her chin. Soon enough, his fingers find their way down to the first button on her shirt.

He's perfectly content with the distraction rather than finding something to say to that. Actions spoke louder than words. He had faith she would never quit and the intimacy was a promise that it wouldn't be the last.

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She can't help but smile a little even with the heaviness of this being the last night. "I promise to bring one bikini, one tee shirt, and one pair of shorts," she tells him. Of course, she doesn't know about the ring yet, but it won't leave her finger unless he wants her to take it off. He gets no protest when he undoes the first button on her shirt or when he undoes any of the other buttons. In fact, it gives her permission to start unbuttoning his shirt, her lips following her fingers to nibble, suck and flutter at his neck, his collarbone, down his chest.

Actions have always spoken louder than words with them. This won't be their last night, not if she has anything to say about it. It's just the last night for a little while.

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Her smile is an assurance though that he's doing the right thing and that can count her to do her thing. They all have their parts in stopping the end of the world and returning to the way it was before. He tries his best not to snort, failing epically enough. "You expect me to believe you'd wear the bikini and not just the shirt." Unlike some, she definitely knows the way to humor him. Before the night is over, he'd propose so there are no questions about his feelings for her. Tonight isn't the night to leave any questions unanswered about how he feels. None of her actions meet any protest, rather they're met in kind with firm actions like to grip, tug, shove or pull her closer from her waist to her head. His skin feels hot and breath almost unsteady to the amount of pleasure her nibbling at his collarbone downward does to him.

There's no perfect moment to ask her to marry him but when they're both shirtless, catching their breath, his hand slips into his pocket and wraps his fist around the ring to pull it out. "I want to ask you one more favor, Ruby. Will you... Will you marry me when I get back?" His fist opens to reveal the ring.

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Ruby isn't sure this is the right thing, but if they don't do something, she's going to lose Sam to insanity. At least this way, she can get him back and they can work on his sanity. She's been tortured in Hell for hundreds of years. She knows how to come back from that. She doesn't know how to fix this. "The tee shirt is easier access," she admits, "but I think I'd like the way you look at me in a bikini." She is humoring him, but she's also trying to give them both some kind of hope going into this. Hell hates hope; it's the best chance he's got of surviving.

The only more perfect moment than this one, as far as Ruby is concerned, would be one in which he wasn't jumping into a pit tomorrow. The moment, the heat, and the way they're tangled up in each other, all serve to distract her so that she doesn't realize what he's doing. Her expression is confused and there's already a pout forming on her lips at the distance between them. Of course, that pout gives way to surprise. "Sam--" she's breathless for an entirely different reason now. Her eyes soften and her lips curve into a soft smile. "You know, I've never had anyone ask me to marry them before." She slides her arms over his shoulders, moving close to him again. "Yes, Samuel. I will marry you, but you damn sure better come back to me."